This morning I am a crazy woman trying to do all the “honey” do’s of life before all the weekend goings. My list is as long as my arm, plus I need to blog.
At the last minute, Thing 1 calls me to bring extra gear to lacrosse camp – which of course blows my schedule. I find myself throwing his stuff in the trunk, flying down the driveway and heading out. Once I turn out of my neighbourhood I start to check the clock and mentally tick through what needs to be done and realize, Yikes! “I am running like a chicken with my head cut off” (a colloquialism of my mom’s). I sigh heavily….
All of the sudden I am hit with a the glory of the beautiful morning, the crisp blue sky and ironically, a very personal song comes on to the car stereo that brings me to tears and draws be back to a day 10 years ago.
It was on such a day as this – another stunning clear sky, another cool day.
It was that day in April, I said goodbye to a life-long friend who passed away from breast cancer. The song? It is called I AM and was written and sung by Nicole Nordeman. It is a story about a young girl who grows into a woman and learns through it all that her Saviour, Jesus, is right there through it.
The week I said goodbye to my sweet girl friend, “Lou” I heard that song for the first time…it truly told her story as well. I wrote about Lou on another blog, but I have not shared all of it and still hold things back as I process the hurt of her loss.
That said, this day, this song and my God, brought me back to revisit her heart and her lessons. Lou had a life motto that each of us should slow down and “Taste the Day.” She lived it every day of her 40 years. She taught others to do the same. But in my rush and craziness today – I did not practice it. In fact I haven’t done so nearly all summer, as today is much like most of my days now.
Lou’s memory haunts me…I miss her, but it is in a good way.
Her short life taught much. She was strong and beautiful and sure of our Lord. Here is my “Aha moment”. I must remember her in that and be and do the same. So I am sharing with you the song, which I have renamed “Lou’s Song” – as it tells the story of a girl, yes, but it really reminds us of the character and trustworthiness of God. He is the I AM in all our lives. He will never leave us, never forsake us. Lou knows that too. She is with Him now – probably humming along and tasting her day in eternity.
I have linked the song below followed by lyrics. Have a beautiful and tasty day my friends. Amen and Amen.
Pencil marks on a wall I wasn’t always this tall, You scattered some monsters from beneath my bed, You watched my team win, You watched my team lose, You watched when my bicycle went down again,
CHORUS: And When I was weak unable to speak, still I could call You by name, and I said “Elbow healer, Superhero, come if You can,” and You said “I am”
Only 16, life is so mean, what kind of curfew is at ten PM You saw my mistakes, You watched my heart break Heard when I swore I’d never love again
CHORUS: When I was weak, unable to speak, still I could call You by name, and I said “Heart-ache Healer, Secret-keeper, be my Best Friend” and You said “I am”
You saw me wear white, by pale candlelight, I said forever to what lies ahead two kids and a dream, with kids that can scream too much it might seem when it’s two AM
CHORUS: when I am weak, unable to speak, still I will call You by name. “Oh Shepherd, Savior, Pasture-maker, hold on to my hand,” and You say “I am.”
The winds of change, And circumstance blow in and all around us so we find a foothold that’s familiar, And bless the moments that we feel You nearer Life had begun, I was woven and spun, You let the angels dance around the throne, who can say when, But they’ll dance again, when I am free and finally headed home
CHORUS: I will be weak, unable to speak, still I will call You by name “Creator, Maker, Life-sustainer, Comforter, Healer, My Redeemer, Lord and King, Beginning and the End, I am, yes, I am.”