Well, well, well – what a weekend, my friends!
I hope everyone had a fun Halloween! New York City celebrates the weekend before, so I had my fill of costume parties and spooky fun!
Friday night was a long overdue catchup session with my bestie, and Sunday, we had a scary movie night and dinner party!
Saturday night, however, I had a couple friends over to my place before hitting up a loft party in SoHo, and I’m telling you – the future is now.
Hear me out: Before having my friends over – I was running late, so I ordered a couple bottles of alcohol on an app on my phone to be delivered to my apartment in 30 minutes. During the get together, I instantlyplayed the exact music I wanted, on my phone. Heading to the party, we ordered an Uber that instantlypicked us up and took us to the party. And then at the door, we bought tickets on our phone, which were delivered virtually right then and there, and we got in to the party.
I mean – isn’t that how the world operates now? Instantaneous gratification?
We want something — BAM — two taps on our phone and we’ve got it.
There’s no waiting, no need for patience. Like Arianna Grande so eloquently sings: “I see it, I like it, I want it, I got it.”
Sunday rolled around, and on my jog, I was listening to a sermon, and it turned out to be incredibly timely. It put everything into perspective from the night before — specifically about God’s speed.
Because spoiler alert, it is much different than the fast paced life we’ve grown accustomed to in 2019.
One of the biggest challenges — at least I face — in my faith life, is letting God take His time.
I can be incredibly impatient, so giving God space and time to work on my heart and renew my spirit — it’s something I continually have to work on.
The saying, “haste makes waste” is acutely applicable here. If you want something done well, you have to do it right. You have to take your time and go through the complete process. It’s not an instantaneous thing, or a PDF download that we can simply copy/paste into our hearts.
God’s process of renewal — which, additionally, is what recovery actually is at its very core — is a gradual transformation. Read: a slow process. It’s a gentle evolution of revival, into the person God created me to be. And it’s an all-encompassing process to say the least.
I think what we forget is that, not only do truly good things take considerable time, but also, transformation can be uncomfortable. We’re stretched, we’re smooshed, we’re shaped this way and that, as the pliable hunks of clay that we are.
And sometimes, we have to endure difficult things in order to learn a necessary truth before we’re ready to move forward on our path.
We’ve got to allow God to take His time as He is working in our lives. We cannot rush Him. We cannot skip ahead, or fast forward, just because we’re impatient or eager to get to the finish line.
There is only the ultimate finish line: in Heaven. And life is the marathon. And as someone who has been recovered from anorexia for 12 years now, that dedication to my recovery is now part of my race course, like it or not.
And the most powerful action I can make to that commitment is to let God take His time as I walk that beautifully intentional road, day after day.
There are lessons I have learned now, in 2019, that I was not ready to learn back in 2012, or 2007, or even just months ago. Sure, it was the same recovery, but God has taken me through a deeper transformation since then, allowing me the ability to grow and evolve to where I can learn those lessons.
And that’s true whether you’re in recovery or not.
God is always at work – and like all skilled craftsmen, He doesn’t rush a masterpiece.
Instant gratification, sure it’s great if you need a car service, or if say – you’re having a Halloween party and no alcohol in your house.
But not when it comes to God’s process of transformation. Now when it comes to working on the incredibly intricate and unique creations that are you and me.
“This is what the Lord says to these bones: I will make breath enter you, and you will come to life.” Ez 37:5
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